The olevels is over, competition is over too. Just when I thought the end of olevels deserves great joy, the competition seems to have eaten joy up. ): perhaps this year would be the most depressing year of my life. I could, you know, do very badly for olevels and also fail my diploma. I'm already on my way to depression after my failure in the competition. However like the story of the footprints, God lifted me up during that suposedly devastating time of my life. I clearly remember how it went. I enjoyed myself on stage.. The results only came out the day after while I was in the midst of childaid rehearsal. It was during the rehearsal when I got the bad news in the most indirect way. So it didn't hit me. I was just in shock while the orchestra was playing festive overture. It was only during the break where my shock turned to disappointment and you know, tears. Ze was with me the whole time, in fact she was the only one whom I allowed to stay by my side. I guess she saw how I stared at the scenery I drop my first tear, then second. It was a whole 10min of crying. Ze was just beside me, 50cm away. She didn't say anything, my sobbing took over our conversation. After that 10min, I held my tears back cause rehearsal had to resume. Throughout the rehearsal, I could feel God comforting me. I didn't realise it was Him all along who helped me through this difficult time. I had another crying session for another 10min at home and that was all. Somehow, God told me, that's enough and I stopped. For the next few days, tears would only come when someone calls me a loser. I do admit that I'm one but I hate to remind myself that I'm one cause I've been trying to work on it for a long time.

So life goes on. I keep myself occupied with childaid and diploma which I know will cause me to be upset when I fail but I'm prepared for the worst considering that I only got my scores 2 weeks ago, I can't expect much from myself anyway.

Through this year's pv competition, I'm sure many have various reactions to it. Some, like me, may be very disappointed. While others are very encouraged by the results. No matter what, life goes on. As long as sun rises, there is hope, there is life.